Let-It-Go!

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” Surrender is to Let-It-Go”

I Love Disney’s “FROZEN”! I will be the first to tell you that the Song “Let it Go” is NOT out played and I could listen to it everyday! It’s not just the lyrics but the instrumental breakdown leading into the bridge that is seriously  my favorite… I kid you not my head follows the musical progression in funky fashion but I LOVE IT!

The song’s writers, Kristen Anderson-Lopez and Robert Lopez,  made no mistake when they wrote:

“It’s funny how some distance makes everything seem small and the fears that once controlled me can’t get to me at all. It’s time to see what I can do, to test the limits and break through…”– Disney’s FROZEN “Let It Go”

I remember a time where nothing could shake me. It did not matter what the world brought my way my faith and trust in God, in Jesus my Savior, could not be shaken… my foundation on my rock and my redeemer was set so firm.

I remember a time where being ridiculed for my belief in Jesus was common, for my dedication to serving him and his kingdom, being persecuted for being more interested in reading books that deepened my relationship with God rather than non-fictional books from the library. My attention was nothing more than focused solely on the Great God I had come to know and had fallen so deeply in love with.

I remember a time when surrender looked like a moment on my knees to re-center myself, or to be in front of the Piano because all I wanted to do was sit and worship. It is where I surrendered my fears, my pain, my hopes and dreams. I knew that My life in Gods hands was exactly where it was meant to be. I would not allow myself to be tainted by circumstance, with my heart guarded but still so tender and gentle in Spirit there was nothing I could not accomplish with God for me. I always sought the best in people no matter what their poisonous “read-between-the-lines” statements or cruel intentions were.   So Brave, courageous, fearless because I knew who’s wings I rode upon.

FAST FORWARD….

Something breaks as you go through life and you fight for it to be pieced together in your adult life. I can’t put my finger on it but life can get so Crazy. It is amazing how certain experiences in life can alter the lens or filter in which we view the world. And those filters make a significant impact on the decisions we make daily and how we handle the outcomes of our circumstances daily.

I recently became aware of how blurry my vision had become because of certain experiences in my own life. It is not until recently that I have been able to look the past in its face and say “You are POWERLESS over my future! Time to get the get a brand new pair of eye glasses!

I often have to look back to remember who I once was from time to time to remind myself of who I can be but BETTER. Fear tends to strangle me at times,  but I am not going to give in anymore.

Note to FEAR… I have had it and its time to pack your bags because you are on a one way ticket out of here! HASTA LA VISTA BABY!!

Sure I still have anxiety struggles and sure there are times I still read between the lines where it isn’t necessary and make assumptions that are incorrect. And yes at times layers of my heart become calloused but its important that in recognition of this I surrender it to God. He is my hope, my provider, my deliverer, my defender, my help in time of need, my wisdom, my eyes, my heart. When I get knocked down I will stand back up. You know why because I am a daughter of the most High God and fear outside of the Fear of the Lord has no place in my heart. Un-forgiveness, bitterness, anger, jealousy etc has no place in our hearts folks.

I feel challenged today as I sit and ponder these thoughts.

The Joy of the Lord as my strength. Gratitude and blessings surround me and I take what has been placed in my care very seriously (i.e. family, job, relationships youth, service etc).

Will you search your heart and the conditions you find unfitting, will you surrender it to God? Will you fight for you? Will you surrender and allow God to take you to a new place in life? Are you ready to be obedient to the call? Are you ready to look your past, your fears and the things that bind you in the face and say, ” YOU HAVE NO POWER OVER ME AND MY FUTURE”?

Make some distance between you and your fears and struggles and gain some perspective then Conquer! LET_IT_GO! It is time for break-through!

I pray that you are encouraged that you in your own journey (whatever that my look like) are not alone. You are able to conquer and able to say to the mountains before you to move in the name of Jesus and I pray that gets into your spirit tonight.

I love Oswald Chambers and today I want to close with an excerpt from one of his devotionals on TOTAL SURRENDER from “My Upmost for His Highest”-

“True surrender will always go beyond natural devotion. If we will only give up, God will surrender Himself to embrace all those around us and will meet their needs, which were created by our surrender. Beware of stopping anywhere short of total surrender to God. Most of us have only a vision of what this really means, but have never truly experienced it.”

Live Blessed,

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Temporary Incompetence

“TEMPORARY INCOMPETENCE” (EEEKK!!)

The Awkwardness you endure in the beginning stages of anything new. I had never labeled this feeling until about 2 years ago when one of the Neurologists at my job talked about this very thing in one of our department meetings. I thought .. hmm… of course! It makes total sense that we all experience a time of not knowing what the heck we are doing or what in the world we have gotten ourselves into. The feeling of being inept, lacking skill or lacking ability is one I certainly despise. No exceptions.

Today I started my new job. It is the 4th position I have had within the same company in a 10 year span. I am so grateful for the opportunities that have been presented to me recently. All past experiences and leadership opportunities have built upon the last to prepare me for the next endeavor. Although somehow when the seasons of change are upon me they come in clusters. Because there are always a few things shifting at one time, it causes me a little anxiety.

It is in the moments of anxiety that I remember to not lean on my own understanding and my Spirit Man goes into overdrive searching  for wisdom and truth. Sometimes I just want to fast forward through this Episode of Temporary Incompetence.

But it is my temporary inability that I realize that He who is in me is Greater than my present circumstance and He makes me able. It is in this fear of lacking that I am given the opportunity to Face Everything And Rise (F.E.A.R.)

I will RISE. I will Learn and I will be better than I was yesterday. I may not like feeling of temporary incompetence but I am teachable and will overcome. I am encouraged with this truth that has been dropped in my Spirit. I know that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind ( 2 Timothy 1:7). I lean upon that.

So the Truth is: I am a CONQUERER! A Champion! A Victor…It is in my divine DNA. So I leave you with this scripture below:

“I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”- Philippians 4:13

Be encouraged! I am…=)

Hope: The Catalyst

Hope. A beautiful word that inspires me the moment it rolls off the tongue. I feel as though that word shifts the atmosphere. A Power word. One that motivates, encourages and sets in motion a whirl wind of emotion to empower us. Hope’s synonyms include: aspiration, expectation, desire, goal, aim, ambition, etc.

I find hope when I see individuals lending a helping hand to a family in need. Supplying resources, sharing smiles, giving their time to causes that they are passionate about. I think because this world is so dim… sometimes I think there is not a person in the world that cares enough to make a change. Maybe because the act of selfishness comes so easy and that the act of not looking beyond ourselves takes little to no effort.

But to step out courageously with purpose in hand spreads hope. To boldly stand firm for a cause you believe in spreads hope. To be the voice of those who may seem so insignificant spreads hope in the grand scheme of things and it is a valuable endeavor more precious than rubies. It certainly births an agent of change in my heart; a catalyst; Hope.

Who is your Hope? What is your Hope in? What is your longing, your desire, your aim, your ambition?

Questions to ponder… and ones I can answer whole heartedly in the split second of a heartbeat. Can you?

Proverbs 13:12
Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.